//Selfish

All I can think about
is myself
the sting
like a piece
so hard.
a little bee
coming for me.
right through the layers
of my tainted
selfish heart.
and all i can do is think about myself.

Words

My words hit you like bricks.
and its something you can't control.
Its inside your heart and
it kreeps into your soul.
Weighing you down
...Until you know
How I felt a million times before.
When those exact words were
Reversed.
Hurting me inside and never
Letting me go.

How I feel.

Their is a hurt so deep within.
That if I stop laughing.
It'll come back in.
If I cannot talk or am alone.
Slick tears show up when
I am not thinking.
It starts to pour
like a thunder shower.
I am a crumbling tower.
It's spilled milk on the floor.
You shouldn't, but you do
Cry like you never did before.

The Storm

The battle with the sea and me.

We are not the ebb and flow,

but the waves that crash and go.

I try to escape this

but like the tide it comes

back like ripples, invading.




You feel the sink of

up and down, our lives are

crossed and we are hand in hand.

The storm is just above our

smiles, crushing us with deep

turns.




I am the hope that this will stop,

but i know all the fears, knows all my fears.

It's something that falls on me,

but through the fog,

someday i'll see.


The rocky cliff is far away

but we try to steal away,

just like a parachute

whose things won't open

the storm will make us

top over.

... {}happiness and other disasters

Not trying to whisper, but I can feel my throat can't speak.
I am more bottled up then pop, about to expload,
From being shooken up from all this.
Not trying to be moody, but I can feel my feelings are rising
Even though I'm trying to hold them, theyare in every corner,
anger, sadness, happiness flying through the air.
Unmatchable, Unmanageable, unbelievable and all the other
Uns- that make our lives so doubtful.
Not trying to be singer, but I got a lot of songs to share.
Even if no one will sing them, I would like to take a bow and sing.
Life makes me want to throw some things.
Not trying to be anything, that isn't what you want.
But I'll plant my face with a smile, and gracefully
Walk out of the door, not feeling, not being, not doing anything
that you don't want.
Not trying to be broken, because you need someone who is whole,
Need someone who doesn't break down, doesn't do anything you don't want.
But I am human, I do breathe, and I do not want to give up.
I don't want to leave.
Not trying to be something, without everyone's okay.
But I need some space, need some time, need something more
than I am needing in life, and thinking I just need some time to think.
Not trying to be a disaster, but happiness floats away,
LIke a balloon i have to catch up up up and away.
my life is somewhere, up in the clouds, I keep looking up
When I should be looking out.